Well mum this is for you,about time I hear you say,its been so hard since you left,memories I have blanked or hidden,some too painful to recolect,my wish is what u wanted for me and that was to get on and have a fullfilled life,to live my life,and I have, but part of me is still connected to the bad bits and its time to let in the light,let you be at peace,cause me keep holding on to what could have been,me holding on to your illness ect, must be stressing you as it has me. I want to be at peace in my life and I want to say "see you later" and let go...not of your life or love but all those nasty bits that tug at me. Maybe then I will be able to breath and hopefuly the beautiful memories will come flooding back. So here I go mum,might take me some time and courage but for you this is my gift.Love you always Sharon xxxxxx