They did not have a bed, emergency room you stayed, the Nurses too busy to be good. You were so ill but still told us through the oxegyn mask that you loved us and that I stinked of cigeretts! even then we laughed. Hopelessness and fear were all tied together with lack of sleep and empty bellies, eveyone was numb. They thought the cancer was now in your liver,anything else!!! I thought,if you survived what did you have to carry on with? but anyway I knew you would survive...you were a survivor. People visited,you looked and recognised them,Dad and Graham went home whilst you rested and I stayed with you on the floor matress. Then things become fuzzy,memories that I see in snapshots, but maybe thats for the best. You left at 9.00am on a Monday morning,18th November 2002, Dad holding one hand, Graham the other and me at your feet, thankyou mum for letting us all see you go, we all wanted to be there for you. Did not know you were going or I would of said Goodbye, words will never explain how much you meant to us all, how much you are missed eveyday, you were my rock my betsfriend, I will miss you every day until if possible we again can be together, see you later my beautiful mum, so proud of you. You can now be my angel, I can not change anything I realise that now, you are not coming back, I realise that now. But we were lucky were we not mum, you said in your last Christmas card " how close can a mother and daughter be?as close as you and me", no one can ever take that away..not even death. Godbless mum nite nite xxxxxxx